In bed the other night, I was thinking (as usual) about my search for God, or answers anyway. And I stumbled upon an idea that seemed like a mini epiphany. Before I get into the meat of it, this is a call to my followers and all who might happen up this post to perhaps help me answer a couple of questions and thus move myself further to finding my god.
My question is addressed to people who were raised in a secular or non-religious environment. However, if you feel you have something to add to the conversation that does not involve the usual rhetoric involved in discussing religion or random and lengthy bible quotes, by all means please comment.
The idea I had, and what I want to ask you gentle readers is sort of a two part question:
What is the source for the desire to search for God or a higher meaning?
If we are raised in a completely secular or atheistic environment where it is never suggested, inferred, or taught to us that we need or should have a god, do we still inherently feel a need to seek one?
Perhaps now you can see why I specified readers raised in secular environments. If as children, we are in any way introduced to the idea that religion should be a part of our lives, especially if the introduction comes by way our our parents, who have a heavy influence on our thoughts and feelings during our formative years, then that idea may always be a part of us, even if our intellect bucks it (like mine does.)
This is specifically my problem, by the way. My brain tells me there is no way there is someone “watching over” us; if there were, our world would not suck so much. Yet there is a part of me that likes the idea of a gentle father-figure who loves us unconditionally and keeps a place for us by his side.
Although I don’t relish the idea of him watching me while hubs and I have the “sexy time.”
I suppose this question could work in reverse, but I know the story of disillusionment and lack of faith on a more personal level.
I have long considered myself someone who is reverent of nature, and even dabbled in Wicca for a while, but in the end, even ideologically pleasing religions like Wicca, Hinduism, and Buddhism still incorporate deity worship, in many cases multiple deities. Moreover, embracing nature alone means embracing the idea that everything is essentially form and function, part of the circle of life, and there really is no higher meaning, aside from survival and continuation of the species.
So, as I said before, though this post may be another one of my introspective and theological ramblings, it is also a call for interaction. Please feel free to (respectfully) share your thoughts.