–Sometimes I can be arrogant, and disdainful of other people… but I think at least some of the time, this stems from the frustration I feel at being unable to do anything significant to affect the bad behavior of others.
For instance, today while reading a blog entry on Own Your Shit, (don’t you just love that name?) I realized after I posted it, how my comments could possibly be construed as arrogant. I sound as if I feel superior, morally and intellectually, to those careless and self-involved enough to enjoy our beautiful world and yet pollute it with their garbage and ruin it for others. In a way, I guess I do feel superior…but whether or not you agree with my assessment of their behavior or my own, I believe part of the reason I feel so resentful of them is my inability to reach enough of them to make a difference, and the very real likelihood that it wouldn’t make a difference even if I could. You can’t argue with self-involved. You can’t argue with stupid.
— The second “revelation” for the weekend is that maybe I need a change in my perspective when it comes to my smoking. I should apply the same no bullshit philosophy I have on so many other things and with so many other people to myself. Basically, you can’t have everything you want. I should stop being selfish, because even though I enjoy smoking, it would be better for my health (and wallet) if I didn’t, and I owe it to my daughter to be healthy and provide a better example for her.