This beautiful spring morning brought with it two things; a head cold and news of the death of Chris Cornell. His death was sudden and unexpected, and at least one source alludes to the possibility of suicide. Although I won’t speculate here, that particular prospect makes me immeasurably more sad. My friends and regular readers will likely know how important music is to me. I find it a daunting prospect, the idea of fleshing out my feelings in a detailed post, so I’ll just say that Soundgarden was with me throughout my adolescence, my formative years, as it were. Many, many nights I fell asleep listening to the B side of Superunknown (yes, I actually had the album on cassette tape before I got the disc.) At the time it occured, I was mildly bummed when Soundgarden broke up, but the older I got, the more important the music of my teenage years became to me, so I was totally psyched when they got back together. Maybe one day, fate willing, I would even get to see them perform live. Not now, not ever.
Although it’s not as if I knew this man personally, his words, his voice, meant something to me. I never met him, never spoke a word to him, and aside from the usual fangirl musings, I never thought much about it. Just him being in the world, making music, was enough. Just as now, knowing he is no longer is the world, will never grace us with his voice again, fills me with a formless sense of loss. How do we mourn someone we didn’t know, but who still managed to make an emotional mark on our souls? I guess you either get it or you don’t. For all of my friends and readers who do, I leave you with my all time favorite Soundgarden song.
Edit: With Chris Cornell’s death officially being ruled suicide, I want to just mention here, there was NO snark or disrespect intended by my selection of song. It just has been my favorite for years. Blessed be to his family and bandmates in this sad time. ❤